Irritable.

In thinking about this whole gut/constipation/IBS stuff, it makes me think that I need to strive more so for balance because I can be irritable when I am stressed and not in balance. Irritable is the first part of IBS, so I figure that is the first part to think about. Next post, bowel....

I took two days off with this whole episode. Which is not something I would normally do. But having two body systems be irritated with me at the same time caught my attention. Caught my attention in a real way that made me realize that I wasn't paying attention to my present. I was so fixated about the future or on survival that I wasn't thinking about living in the day, let alone enjoying the day. For example: I was taking Basil on a long walk because she needs it and I needed it. I was looking at the trees and wondering when the leaves got so big. It is like I have been in a haze for a while and now coming out of it and noticing beauty that has been here but I hadn't picked up on it.

Also in these two days I had a thought about priorities. I had this crazy idea that this is how I should try my priorities:
1. Me.
2. Mine.
3. Them.

I need to take care of me and mine before I worry about them and their's.

I want to be healthy and content. I want to live simply and at peace. Can these new priorities do that? I don't know. But I am going to try.